Haley Webster, student contributor

What is the point of looking for who I want to be if I don’t even know who I am now? I just don’t know what i’m going to do if I don’t even know who I am? “ You’re going to go far in life” but, do you really mean that? I lost the person I was when I was younger. I lost that childlike person I was. Who would have thought that I would be the way I am now when I was a kid. I was a happy kid and didn’t have a care in the world. Now it seems like there is a black cloud over my head and it won’t go away.

Why is it that when we grow up that everything seems to end up getting harder? When we were younger it was like the world was not evil, the world was not trying to put us in a place where we as kids could never imagine. Does anybody else feel like this or is it just me? Why do I feel that this is what life is? Feeling lost all the time and not knowing how to handle situations that it throws at us? Growing up people told me that life was great and I couldn’t wait to grow up.

It’s crazy how many lies that people have put in my head about the world being great and that it would be the best thing to happen to me. Growing up? Yeah right, all growing up did for me is make me lose the person I used to be. Making myself grow up just made everything so much harder on myself. I lost a part of me to grow up that I can never get back. I lost all confidence in myself. I lost everything.